The losses I feel...

I finally got back to work and it was a very happy day! Of course, I was working very strange shifts, but it brought my "grandson" back into my life for a few brief moments, so it was worth it!

As I was getting off my bus, I heard a wee voice calling me. I looked up and there was Steven's grandson, Uriah, coming toward me. I was so incredibly happy to see him! I really miss Uriah and his parents and his baby brother and sister, who turned one in March and I still haven't been able to see them and take their presents to them. I have been advised to put off my visit until the court case is over and Steven's antics continue to put that time further and further out.

This is where I feel great loss!

I enjoyed being Grandma to Uriah and the twins. I enjoyed visiting with their mother and her extended family. Uriah fits just between my sons, and they have missed his company as well.

When I saw him, I had to give Uriah a great big hug and I told him how much I loved him and missed him and then I cried.

The assault was a violent and painful experience. The aftermath has been even worse, however, and missing my extended family that is no longer mine - that's painful!

I hope they know, even though I can't really be around them right now, that I love them all!